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I thought it would be better if i forgive you..
but i guess it would not bring back our times together..
i really miss the way we use to be...
laughing sweetly and honestly,
not trying to be someone else but ourselves..
not worrying for any akwardness nor drama..

I hope someday we could look pass this...
do the things that we used to do..
and just be plain HAPPY..

I Just want you....

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would it be so bad, if we tried to be together and be happy.. or you rather be bitter not being with each other....

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Can't have any regrets lossing every sanity....

The first time i saw you.. i never really notice you..
you were just a person i need to work with..
but you did your best to get to know me..
and we've gotten so close too..
too close that we were inseparable..
you gave me feelings.. i didn't understand..
and i know you were giving special attention all the time..
It started with an inocent hug
before it became an unavoidable kiss that changes everything..

Never let a second goes by with a thought of you..
especially since the day you said you loved me..
I didn't say it back to you back then..
but i was really in love with you and was scared..
It was an unlikely union that might not have a chance..

But still i should have said it..i should have said that i love you too..
then maybe, just maybe... she didn't have a chance.
to ruin everything about us..
but i guess, you've thought getting her would stop her for getting me..
and now though you've ended it with her.. its hurting me all the time..
never felt true sadness and true pain.. whenever i'm with her or with you..
I tried to get away from both of you.. but still i'm stock..
i just don't know what to do..
i tried to get back to whatever we were back then before she happened..
but it seems you just stop to care..
i wanted to moved on..
i wanted to let go of you...
but still you've kept me holding on..
can't take any more pain..
don't know what to do any more..
your smile is tattoed on mind
while your name is scripted on my heart..
so please let me taste your lips once again..
so i could know.. whether you and i..
still have a chance..or just let myself forget you..
forget every little things we've been through...
and just see you like the first time i saw you..
not a friend, not a pal, not someone i need to understand..
but just a person who i work with...

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Can't have attraction replace life's entrusted sanity...

Lessons for the heart...

i never knew real love 'til you showed me...

I never knew real sadness since the day you left me...